Plans

Today I had more problems......so I'm going to make a list of ways to die. I'll get back to you when I'm sure that one of them will succeed.

Hell

I went through absolute hell today involving you know what. Ever since I found out what the whole hearing thing was and the fact they can't stop it etc. It's been 10 times worse.....

I even tried to kill myself today.

*Sigh*

I slept in due to what went on yesterday and I woke up at around 7:00AM and a little later I get the dreaded feeling again. And not only that but it's intense! Also it feels a little different too. But it's the same thing.

What the hell is wrong with me?

*Sigh*

Well first thing you should know is that early this morning at around 2:00AM in the morning I was awoken to this fucking ass baby crying its unworthy ass off and that just set me off. I swear that if I had access to it it would've out of the apartment......

Why does my first day of 2008 have to start out so badly? Tell me please!

Happy New Year!

Wishing everyone a Happy 2008!

Love you and hope every one enjoys themselves!

Awesome Day!

Kerry came today and she brought me more stones! And they're soooooooo pretty! I had a blast with her! Wish that I could've spent more time with her but it was awesome! This is what I bought:

2 packs of frogs!
3 bottles of coke ( I missed having it deeply and I couldn't resist )
2 pens with fuzzy wuzzies on top ( blue and purple )
Marbles
Cheese! ( Missed it too )

And of course I went out for pizza! I would be insane if I didn't!

Merry X-......Oh Just Forget It!

Yeah and I mean that. The day was nothing but agony with a few "happy" moments. And it's all due to the fucking feeling that I was having for the past few days and the CFH too. *Sigh*

I give up!

Well.....

....tomorrow is X-mas and I'm scared out of my ass, and that's because today was a piece of shit, so what will tomorrow be like? *Looks worried*

R.I.P Again

Another one of my precious crabs went today. WTH is going on?! 2 in a row.......a day from each other.......I'm scared for my other 2 now.....

R.I.P I love and miss you!

R.I.P

One of my crabs passed today.......May he r.i.p

I love and miss you.

मोरे पास!

इ हद अनोठेर पासफुल डे टुडे ऎंड फॉर ठाट इ'म ग्रातेफुल। ठनक यू गोद ऎंड इ होप ठाट थे कोन्तिनुए। :)

Thank You God

Today was a god send. Not one problem. Everything was great. Also I got a link to a site that you can make boingies! Thank you God!

より悪く行く地獄

昨日は雌犬だった。 それは時間に沿う最も悪い雌犬だった。 私はに走った従って私がこれに私を書くように多くの問題は、私は目がさめているが、の

何か流出する私はおそらく決して理解しない。

私が多かれ少なかれ弾いた鬣問題はこれらである:

1. 強風のために

2. 私がTSのようにおよびたくさん聞こえた何かを聞き続けたので私はTSを憎む。

3. 異常な私を運転しているとても赤ん坊および私のOCD。

私はこのような何も再度起こらないことを望む。

Hooray!

I went to see my therapist for the last time today. I found out that I won't be seeing him any more after we left. My mom told me when I came home.

I'm so happy! (●^_^●)

Oh Crap!

So tomorrow I'm going to have to see my therapist who is a complete jack ass if I haven't told you. He's crazy and I mean that in a dangerous sort of way. If you only knew what he's trying to do you would be like "OMFG WTF is his fucking problem! Get away from him stat!" And my mom is working on getting me away from him ASAP.

I'm hoping I'll get to kick his ass some how with out me or my mom getting into any kind of trouble. I want him to feel it too. The bastard deserves some physical pain and of course humiliation. The better if it's public.

Kthnxbye!

OMG!

The tree came today and it's so cute! I'm sitting right by it. Also yesterday I went to sleep at 6:00PM and I woke up today at exactly 8:AM! That's 14 hours! I must've been out of it for some reason.

What gets me is I don't know what. But I guess I needed it because I feel better. n_n

Whoopdy Doo Hell Strikes Again!

Ok this is pretty simple. I went to the clinic today and went through absolute hell with the creatures from hell. But it doesn't stop there I ran into another problem in the grocery store when my mom stopped there to pick up a few things on the way home. I never felt like this in my entire life. And guess what?

I went through all of that to come home without any answers as to what is wrong with me! My doctor gave me the name of a website with a list of a bunch of people that could help me! *Screams*

I'm going to die......

I'm Sick Of Being Me

The feeling of me hating me has increased today by a whopping 1000%. It appears that I have no sympathy for other people or maybe it's just me... I don't know but one of my neighbors passed and my mom told me about it yesterday. And today I guess it was some of her family because some people were outside her apartment and they had a fucking baby.....

.....and it was crying and I opened my door and I yelled "Shut Up!" and I slammed the door screaming because the fucking thing wouldn't shut up. And what made it worse were 2 things.

1. The fact that it was practically in front of my door.

2. The fact that my mom told me they were probably coming over for the funeral and that they were members of her family.

I feel utterly disgusted. I hate myself even more now.....

Today Was A God Send

And today was amazing! I went to the library and then to my local Rite Aid and I was shopping for pens when Selena's I Could Fall In Love came on the radio! OMG! That and the fact that I got an email from Sarah made my day! Thank you God! Oh and I got another boingy:

Isn't it adorable?! ♥

>_>......I'm Freaking Weird

Ok something is definitely wrong with me....I died in my sleep and then I came back......and damn! It's affected my whole day. I told my mom and she told me that it was just a dream but I don't know because everything was black......

.......any way tomorrow I'm going to Library and hopefully I'll get some goodies because I've $13.00! W00T! Pray for me will you? I'm going to the clinic next week and I'm dying to tell my doctor what's been going on ( no not my therapist ).

Peace! I also need it.

Never Again.....

.....will I even talk to Evet. Trust me you do not want to know. All I'm going to say that she just proved my uneasy feelings around her to be right.......

If you're able to guess what I'm talking about, and if you're right then that means you're a complete psycho.

Kthnxbye!

X-mas Presents! ^_^

Today a HUGE box of X-mas presents from my brother and his wife for my mom and me came today. It's the biggest one that they've ever sent! Wheeeeee! XD

Happy Thanksgiving

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Although my day sucked ass. See what I'm talking about here. I hope that every one else had a good one. Bye!

Bless My Mom

Well yesterday and today I stayed at my friends house while my mom was in the hospital and yesterday was absolute hell because I was worried sick about her and it was crazy. The whole thing didn't make sense it was like my brain was numb.

She called today and she'll be fine. :D That puts everything at ease. The only thing now is that I miss her! I'm at my place right now. I think sleeping in my own bed tonight will help alot. But it's weird being in the house and not having her here.

Bless her.....she means the world to me. ♥

YAY! The Internet Is Back!

Ok so you've wondered what happened to me.....or not but I'm going to tell you any way because I have to......they told me to......

The internet has been down for 3/2 days and during that time I was absolutely bored out of my ass. I had nothing to do really. It's sad how the internet is the only thing "exciting" in my life atm and when ever it goes for some time I'm absolutely "lifeless".

It's sad. :( Any way 4 days ago I found more boingies including today! YAAAAAAY! And that's it.

Kthnxbye!

I'm Happy!

I'M HAPPY!

Absolute Hell Gone Worse

How can hell get worse? Well this is how:

Today was absolute hell for me. I don't know wtf is wrong with me. I woke up this morning feeling really weird this morning and it just got worse through out the day. I know alot of it had to do with my OCD because I haven't had my meds in 3 days and it's just been getting worse every single day to today.

Lord kill me....

I think I'm going to loose it eventually.....Even now as I write this I feel weird and drained at the same time and I can't stand existing any more. So by for now.

If I don't post for 5 years it means I've killed myself.

Kerry Called!

Kerry called today and my mom and I must've talked with her for about 2 hours. Found out that she's staying in Germany for 2 more years but she'll visit. I don't think I could stand not having her here for 2 more years!

I'll be 17 then! O_O And that's scary for a whole lot of reasons that I'll tell you about some other time. In the mean time night!

Awesome Day

11-9-07: After I left my therapist ( who today truly showed that he's an a** ) I went to the library and returned one of the books I was finished with and renewed the one I wasn't done with and I got a nice big thick one with list of stuff in it for free! YAY! I also went to the 99¢ store and I got more frogs and dice.

And the frogs squeek when you squeeze them! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! I also went to Rite Aid and I got some really nice sparkly gell pens. And I'm going there again next time I go out with Ileen and Moet.

Wapo Gipo Mi Mi Mi Boingy!

Hooray!

Well today I finally got to go to the clinic and thanks to the happy pills my mommy gave me before we left I was "relaxed" and there wasn't many creatures from hell either. Evet came with us. I didn't want her too because I didn't want her to see my flipping out like that if any thing bad happened.

And nothing that bad happened any way so I thankful for that. I got mail from Kerry! YAY! She sent me stones! They're so pretty! ♥

I've Had Enough

You know I'm really pissed off about my OCD. Today I was supposed to go to the clinic but due to me having another breakdown I couldn't. And what made it even worse was the fact that Evet ( My health aid ) witnessed all of the yelling my mom and I did with each other.

And that's all because of me wanting to use a specific garlic powder container that I couldn't find. I can't stand being me any more and I really can't stand having OCD. I want it to end. Tomorrow I'm going to the clinic and I pray to God that there are no problems of any kind what so ever.

I need my happy pills.

I Hate OCD!

My OCD is going to drive me insane I just know it. It's been bothering me for the past 3 days and right now and I don't know what to do. God help me please! I'm actually a little scared right now. I don't what to think anymore either. Am I doomed?

इ वांट तो दी अत थे मोमेंट। इ कांत स्टैंड एक्सिस्तिंग....

White Monarchs!

Yeah this is real. I found out about them today and I wrote about them on my insect blog along with one other picture of one. I ♥ them. They're going on my favorite butterfly list.

-_-

I slept all day again......Don't ask me why because I have no idea why.

I didn't even do anything that would make me tired. I know I'm weird. -_-

Happy Halloween!

....but not for me. I slept all day practically.

What in the world is wrong with me? Some one tell me please!

Hooray!

The women that I told you about that's coming to take me places is coming on Monday Yippee!

Ugh!

My morning was absolute hell. Is it possible to want to kill yourself over OCD? I think so because it's making me go insane. And it's not only driving me crazy it's driving my mom crazy too. Another morning wasted to death over stupid OCD.

I'm telling you I really can't stand existing if I'm going to drive people crazy over my problems. And there's no one to help me because my mom doesn't know what to do and my therapist is a complete jackass! Lord could you do me a few favors?

1. Could you please kill my therapist because his existence isn't helping anybody. I mean he doesn't even think that I have OCD, because he thinks he knows more then all the doctors that got together to figure out what was wrong with me 10 years ago.

Because he thinks he knows everything when that worthless son of a bitch doesn't!

2. Either kill me or destroy the world so we all die.

अवेसोमे न्यूज़!

वेल्ल फॉर अ गूढ़ व्हिले माय मोम हस बीन त्र्यिंग तो गेट सोम वन तो टेक मी आउट फॉर थे डे ऎंड टुडे अ मन काम ओवर तो एवालुँते मी तो हवे अ हैल्थ एड फ्रॉम उच्प तो टेक मी आउट फॉर अस मानी देस अस इ नीद। वहत'एस इन्तेरेस्तिंग इस थे फक्त ठाट माय मोम अस्केद मी इफ इ वांटेड तो तरी गोइंग आउट फॉर 5 देस अ वीक फ्रॉम 10:00AM - 3:00PM ऎंड इ सैद एस!

इ थिंक इ शौल्ड तरी थिस वन आउट तो सी हाउ आईटी विल वर्क आउट। ऎंड थे गूढ़ थिंग अबाउट आईटी इस ठाट वी कैन चंगे आईटी इफ आईटी दोएसं'टी वर्क आउट! =)

इ'म लूकिंग फोरवर्ड तो थिस!

Beans!

YAY! I finally found out what kind of trees these come from. I have the trees outside my house. They come from the Japanese Pagoda Tree. While I was Googling them and other species I came across some pictures of beans of other species of trees in the same family! And now I'm going to look up these too!

I'm soooooo happy about these and finding out about them and finding out about different kinds. I ♥ them so much it's not even funny. I don't know why though. I've always been a nature person always.

Pens

My mom is getting me more gell pens! YAY! And also my mom requested for some one to take me places and the women is coming sometime very soon and I'm looking forward to it immensely! So now I have time to spend with Moet and the woman taking me places!

YAY! This is going to be soooooo much fun! Please envy me! Mwahahaha! >:)

You Wanna Know Don't You?.....

Well here is what's been going on lately. As for today I went to the library with Moet and I got to spend the day with her and that was nice. 2 days ago ( the 18th ) was absolute hell because I had yet another MAJOR OCD breakdown and it was hell as I said.

And as I told you my therapist is a jackass. I have a LJ entry about the 18 and a Gaia entry about the 18th as well both set to private FMEO for obvious reasons. And no I'm not going to re-post them here either.

All you need to know about that day was that it was absolute hell. And that's all you need to know. And as for yesterday it was hell too because TS was supposed to happen ( but thank God it didn't ) and I was a nervous wreck all day because I was so sure that it was going to happen.

But like I said it didn't and I'm greatful for that. :)

Absolute Hell

You know my therapist is such a jack ass? He thinks that I don't even have OCD and today my mom and I had to go to one of the clinics to take this stupid neurological test because he thinks ( my therapist ) that I have something else. He thinks that it's something to do with my brain. *Says this in her mock sarcasm pissed off voice *

And he practically unleashed all the problems that I had today with fucking ass babies on me. OOOOOOOOOOOH you just wait until I see him you just wait...

I Hate Existing

What the title says. Today TS happened once but they didn't even say it was going to happen here! They just said heavy rain for NYC. *Screams* I can't take this any more. I don't wanna exist....

Unbelievable

Yesterday was unbelievable both good and bad. Today my hermit crabs finally came and they're sooooooo cute! ♥ I got 4 of them and they all have the same shell but I'll some how figure out how to tell who's who once I've named them. Oh and this is the good and the bad stuff that happened yesterday.

I should warn you that this isn't some thing you want to go through at all....

The Good:

❀ I went to the 99¢ store with Moet and I got a dangly thing with marbles in it. Hope they have more next time I go. It's really pretty! And you can take the marbles out and put different ones in and it's awesome!

❀ I went to our local pet store and got a book on hermit crabs. I'm soooooo happy about that.

❀ We went back to Moet's house to watch a concert and spend some time with her and her brother.

The Bad:

❀ Few hours later while I was at her house I saw 2 blue flashes outside and I got panicky because it had been raining earlier that day and right away I told the everything and I was freaking nervous it wasn't even funny.

❀ So we ran up the steps all the way to my apartment and said good bye and then a few minutes later......I was right and it was fucking hell. Not just becauuse of the TS but because I was practically screaming at my mom out of agony.

I hate it when a good day ends badly and why did it have to end like this?! FUCK YOU GOD!

Missed Me?

.......Didn't think so.

Any who I had a big controversy with the hermit crabs and it was insane ( full story here ). Also my therapist isn't what he seemed to be.....*sigh* another one gone bad? What's the story with these therapists? It seems like we run through them.

I must've had at least 5 over the last few years. When will we find one that we'll stick with for years to come? Tell me God. I don't know what we're going to do with this one or how long I'm going to see him. I'll keep you updated.

Also last night I finally got to see Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix! It was awesome! Can't wait to get it one DVD! When ever that is......=)

YAY!

My mom told me that she ordered my new hermit crabs and they're comming on Thursday! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! BOINGY! My day was nice. I'm going to see my therapist tomorrow.

Another Month Gone

Time goes by too fast.....Goodbye September and thank you for all the great days you gave me! I'll never forget this one.....♥

Did you miss me?

.....Well did you? Any who I got my hair relaxed today and the past 3 days have been nothing but hell. And here's something that I dare you to try to read......

❀ ꀀꀝꁂꁌ ꄲꅔ꓂꓂ ꑥꑘꑄ꒺ꑼ ꎣꍌ!
❀ ꄬꄱꅎꅔ ꈯꇴꉩ ꊞ꒧.....>:)

Now like I said above try and read it.....*Evil Laughter*

Don't Know What To Put Here

Today I didn't go to my therapist because I wasn't feeling well. I'm going to see him on the 2nd of October so I'll have alot time to relax thankfully. I feel better now if you're wondering.

YAY! New Pens!

My mom gave me a pack of new Uni-ball pens! YAY and they're so pretty. She has more of different brands that I had picked out sometime ago from a Staples Magazine and I'll get more.....mwahahaha! XD I know I'm spoiled.....and I love it! XD

Today was nice. I found another remix to "여자이니까" by K.I.S.S. and kicks ass! Also these are the colors that the gell pens that my mom gave me come in:

*Blue ( regular )

*Orange

*Green ( regular I think haven't tried them yet )

*Pink

*Purple

*Red

*Blue Black ( This one is one of my favorites. I know because I had another one that was seperate and it ran out of ink not too long ago )

*Black

Also tomorrow I'm going to see my therapist and I'm hoping that no problems arouse before I get there like they did the last time because I don't want to go there all upset and everything. I also got an email from Moet! Wheeeeeeee! She added me to her Myspace and I did the same.

Thank God for this day and the fact that she finally got the internet hooked up! lol

Awesome Day

Today was awesome! I went to the library with Moet again and I re-newed my Drangonflies of The World book because I hadn't finished reading it yet and I checked out a new one too. I also got more goodies too:

*A huge bag of Doritos ( I haven't had them in eons! )

*A bunch of bouncy balls from a vending machine

*Moet told me that she might have a Halloween party! I hope so because I can't wait to finally have some fun and go Trick- O - Treating. Yes!

So I have that to look forward too. Also I wound up in an argument later on at night with mom. It drove us both crazy but I'm glad we made up and I hope that it doesn't repeat itself because it was crazy!

Another Monarch!

I saw another monarch outside the clinic after a morning of hell. Thank you god for letting me see it! I went to my therapist and told him about what the meds are doing to me and I'm happy to report that.....I'M NOT TAKING THEM ANY MORE! YAAAAAAAAY!

एविल मेडीसिन

मय न्यू मेड्स ठाट मय थेरापिस्ट गावे मे अरे फ्रॉम थे डेविल हिम्सेल्फ़ बेकाउसे थे गावे मे ४ शोर्ट बुत स्कार्य द्रेंस इन वन निघ्त! ऎंड इन एअच वन ई स्क्रेअमेद आउट लौद। ई'म गोइंग तो सी हिम अत अरौंद ३:०० इन थे अफ्तेर्नूं टुमॉरो ऎंड ई'म गोइंग तो तेल हिम वहत थे'वे बीन डींग तो मे।

अल्सो थे'वे बीन मकिंग मे इत्च सो मय मॉम काम उप विथ थे ठोर्य ठाट ई'म अल्लेर्गिक तो थेम! O_O

OMG!

Today I found out somethings from my therapist that totally shocked me to death. I won't mention on here though because it's personal but I just hope that there's some thing to stop this thing that I can't mention. And no it's not my OCD it's something else.

Just the prospect of it is frightning! O_O

Busy Busy Busy

Tomorrow I'm going to see my therapist again and I'm looking forward to it. Like I did the last time I went only thing back then I was anxious. Now I'm not. :) Yesterday I started my new meds and I feel kinda weird because my body's not used to it yet.

But I'm glad that I get to go out and see him. Plus I get to leave the house again! Yippee!

लेट थिस एंड प्लेस!

ई वेंट थ्रौघ अनोठेर लोड ऑफ शीत टुडे बेकौसे तस हप्पेनेद एंड आईटी वास हेल एंड आईटी द्रैनेद मी कोम्प्लेतेली प्लुस आईटी मदे मी फील दिफ्फेरेंट ( नोट इन अ गूढ़ वे थौघ ) एंड ई दोन'टी क्नोव य। प्लुस just अ मोम माय इ हद अनोठेर थिंग विथ माय मोम

కిల్ల్......ముస్ట్ .....కిల్ల్....

......ముస్ట్....కిల్ల్....తెం.....ఫర్....బేఇంగ్ రిఘ్ట్.......

యు క్నౌ ఐ తే ఇట్ వెన్ థెయ్'రే రిఘ్ట్ అబౌట్ ఫుచ్కింగ్ త్స్ విత్ అ పస్సిఒన్. ఐ వాంట్ తెం డెడ్. ఆల్ ఆప్ తెం.....

కిల్లింగ్ స్ప్రీ!

అచ్కర్దింగ్ తో ది వేఅతేర్ మెన్ ( ఫుక్ తెం! ) ఐ మిఘ్ట్ హవె తో గో ఆన్ అ కిల్లింగ్ స్ప్రీ తోమోర్రౌ మార్నింగ్. ఐ హోపే ఐ వన్'త హవె తూ......

God Bless The Monarchs!

Do you see this? Do you see this?! This is what I saw today when I went out with Moet! I got to hold it too! My day was awesome. We went to the library and the 99¢ store and I got more glass beads and marbles or what ever you call them. And you can read the rest here. I had a blast and I'll treasure that moment when I saw the Monarch forever. Wish I had a camera because I got soooo close to it I could've kissed it! And it was "friendly" if you know what I mean. It wasn't skittish or anything. When it was flying it was so graceful to watch it. And the fact that I got to hold it was even more amazing. I was actually crying! I mean I've tons of monarchs at camp and they never made me feel the way I did today and I never really got that close to one either. This is something I'll never forget. That monarch was an angel.....literally. εĭз

Not Again!

वेल्ल टुडे वास सोर्ट ऑफ़ लिके येस्तेर्दय बुत इत वास नॉट अस बद। ई रेअल्ल्य डॉन'त उन्देर्स्तंद वि ई हवे तो गो थ्रौघ सोमेथिंग लिके थिस २ देस इन अ रोव ( थे फर्स्ट वन बीइंग थे वोर्स्त ऎंड थे सेकोन्द बीइंग नॉट अस बद )। बुत इन मय ओपिनिओं ई थिंक ठाट बोथ वेरे बद ऎंड ठाट ई वासन'त सुप्पोसेद तो गो थ्रौघ एनी ऑफ़ थिस शीत!

ई हटे मय लाइफ ऎंड ई विष ठाट ई दिदं'त हवे एनी ऑफ़ ठेस प्रोब्लेम्स ऎंड ठाट ई वास नॉर्मल ऎंड हैप्पी लिके थे एवरेज किड। :(

Hectic Day

ई क्नेव ठाट सूनेर ओर लेटर वन ऑफ़ ठेस टाईप ऑफ़ देस वौल्ड कॉम ऎंड इत काम टुडे. इत वास अव्फुल. ई विष ठाट इत नेवर हप्पेनेद.

२:३०प्म्: ई काम आउट ऑफ़ बेद ( ई वास स्लीपिंग दुह! ) ऎंड ई वांटेड तो गेट सोमेथिंग तो ड्रिंक सो ई अस्केद मय मॉम इफ ई कोउल्ड ऎंड शे सैद येस ऎंड ई वेंत ओं थे कंप्यूटर व्हिले ई वास वेटिंग फ़ॉर हेर तो फिनिश. ई वास इन थे प्रोसेस ऑफ़ रेप्ल्यिंग तो वन ऑफ़ मय एमैल्स व्हें शे तुर्न्स ओं थे टीवी ऎंड कन्तिनुएस वात्चिंग वहत शे हद बीन वात्चिंग इन थे कित्चें.

सो ई वास तेरे फ़ॉर अ बीत ऎंड थें ई थौघ्त तस हद हप्पेनेद इन थे मूवी शे वास वात्चिंग बेकाउसे तेरे वास थिस कोन्स्तंत फ्लाशिंग ऑफ़ ब्लू लाइट ( अस अल्वाय्स इन मोविएस थे ओद थिंग्स ) ऎंड अ नोइसे ठाट सौन्देद अलोत लिके तस सो नातुराल्ल्य ई फ्रेअकेद आउट ऎंड मय मॉम कपट सयिंग ठाट इत वासन'त तस ठाट इत वास तो दो विथ थे मूवी ( व्हिच वास अबाउट सोमेथिंग फ्रॉम ओउतेर स्पस ) ऎंड ई सैद "ओउतेर स्पस मय अस! " ( ई वास इन थे कित्चें थें ).

ऎंड थें कोमेस थे उसुअल येल्लिंग ऎंड स्क्रेअमिंग ऎंड मे वान्तिंग तो दिए. बॉय ठाट वास सूऊऊऊओ मुच फुं! सो इत वेंत ओं फ़ॉर अ बीत ऎंड थें आफ्टर सोमे टिम ई वेंत तो मय मॉम ( शे वास इन हेर रूम ) ऎंड वी तल्केद ऎंड "मदे उप" बुत ई स्टील फेल्ट स्त्रंगे. ई फेल्ट अपसेट अत थे फक्त ठाट बेकाउसे ऑफ़ मय प्रोब्लेम्स ई'म मकिंग मय मॉम अपसेट.

ऎंड ठाट'एस वहत मेक्स एवेर्य्थिंग वोरसे फ़ॉर मे बेकाउसे व्हें ठेस त्य्पेस ऑफ़ थिंग्स हप्पें मय मॉम ऎंड ई अल्वाय्स गेट इन्तो सोमे कंद ऑफ़ अर्गुमेंत. इत द्रिवेस मे इंसाने लितेराल्ल्य स्पेअकिंग.

इन थे एवेनिंग: इत वास अरौंद ९:०० - १०:००प्म् व्हें थे सेकोन्द प्रॉब्लम अरोसे. ई'म नॉट गोइंग तो गो इन्तो देतैल्स बुत वी'वे ( मय मॉम ऎंड ई ) कॉम तो थे कन्क्लुसिओं ठाट मय हेअरिंग हस गोने उप अगिन!..... ऎंड अगिन क्नोविंग ठाट थे कैन'त दो अन्य्थिंग तो फ़िक्ष् इत मेक्स मे फील ऎंड मेक्स थे सितुअशन एवें वोरसे......ई वान्ना दिए......

Time Goes By Too Fast

Can you believe that another month has gone and another one has started? I can't. Today was nice. I also had one of the longest AIM conversations to date today. It lasted over an hour! O_O I know!

♥My New Therapist Is A God Send!♥

What the title says! He's amazing! I thank God for this day and for him!

Looking Forward To Tomorrow!

And that's because tomorrow I'm going to see my new therapist ( to hell with my old one )! And get this he has his own office away from the creatures from hell! YAAAAAAAAAAY! *boingy!*

I Had A Blast!

I had a blast today and I can't wait for the next one! God bless this oportunity and I'm so glad that it happened because I need something like this....and to know that I now have it it's surreal! It feels like a dream..... Thank you God!

And now go and find out what we did! I ♥ TODAY!

Can't Wait!

Oh man I can't wait for tomorrow! I'm dying for this day to end now!

OMG!

Okay this is truly amazing! On Wednesday my best friends mom is taking me places! W00T! Hopefully Moet ( my best friend since like 4ever ) can come with me. That'd make it awesome! I can't wait! Also tomorrow I'm going to the clinic and the drug store so then I'll be able to get my bug photos from camp developed.

Then I'll post them here. Also this morning I made another script off the top of my head and I'm in love with it. I'll post some samples later. And my day went nicely. I hope that tomorrow everything goes well at the clinic and nothing bad happens and that I don't run into any problems with noisy creatures from hell ( babies ).

Peace! This world needs it.....♥

OMG!

I hit the jack pot just now because I found the song "Como La Flor" by Selena in different languages! O_O Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you! You see this is how big she was and how many people all over the world loved her. Go to ensnips and put Como la flor and search.

You're bound to find one of them.....*Goes to look for more* Aaaaaaay como me duele.....♥♥♥♥

Diary Entries

Diary Entries from camp are coming soon. I just wanted to make that clear. It really doesn't matter what order I put them in but I'm doing it from day 1 so to speak. Did I go to the clinic today? Nope! YAY! And the reason for that is because of what happened at night yesterday and during the afternoon at some point.

I encountered 3 problems with fucking ass babies from hell on TV and the 3 problem being the last and the worst because I flipped out again! Fuck them! Fuck them all!..... And here's a message from me to them ( I doubt that you'll be able to read it though):

/://\/\/:\ \/.\ /\ /.\ /-/ / \:\ / /.\ /\: \ ||. || /- /-/ /-/ \/\ /- \.......

Dreading Tomorrow

I'm dreading tomorrow because I'm going to get my birth control shot at that dreaded clinic of hell with the fucking ass babies. Why? Why do I have to go straight into doom? There has never been a good day in that place never. I'm not looking forward to it.

And what's the use of asking God for a miracle? I did it 20,000 other times when I had to go there and nothing of the sort happened it was always some kind of problem. Why can't I get this done in a place that's baby free?

WARNING: All babies better watch out because if one of them opens their damn mouth it will be the last time they do so......

A Script

I made a script that you can use on the computer. It's easy all the letters consist of the characters / \ . : - | And here it is:

a e i o u

/ \ /- /\ \

b p d g k

\/ /\/ \/\ /-\ \-/

h l m n ŋ

\./ /-/ \-\ /:\

q r s t

\:/ /.\ /:/ \:\

v w x y

l ll l. ll.

z ch th st

l.l l:l /\: \/:

f j c kh

/\/: \/\: /\/\ \/\/

sh ñ

/\/\: \/\/:

Words ll/\/.\\/\/.\

Boingy \//\/-/:\ll.

Weird

Today was kind of weird in a sense. I had the funeral for my hermit crab today after Ms. Berry left. I sang 3 of my favorite songs to it before sending him/her on. I miss her/him! I can't wait to get more. I'm going to bed now because it's 3:33am right now! O_o

Yes I know I'm spoiled....not really my mom's sleeping and I'm trying to type very quietly....n_n

द्रेअमिंग ऑफ़ यू इन हिंदी

ई वास बोरेड सो ई देसिदेद तो ट्रांस्लाते थे सोंग द्रेअमिंग ऑफ़ यू ब्य सेलेना इन्तो हिंदी।

द्रेअमिंग ऑफ़ यू

लेट अत निघ्त व्हें अल थे वर्ल्ड इस स्लीपिंग
ई स्टे उप ऎंड थिंक ऑफ़ यू ऎंड ई विष ओं अ स्तर
ठाट सोम वेयर यू अरे थिंकिंग ऑफ़ मे तू।
चोरुस
काउसे ई'म द्रेअमिंग ऑफ़ यू तोनिघ्त 'तिल टुमॉरो
ई'ल बे होल्डिंग यू तिघ्त ऎंड तेरे'एस नो वेयर इन थे वर्ल्ड
ई'डी राठेर बे थें हियर इन मय रूम द्रेअमिंग अबाउट यू ऎंड मे।

वोंदेर इफ यू एवर सी मे ऎंड ई वोंदेर इफ यू क्नोव ई'म तेरे
( ऍम ई तेरे ऍम ई? ) इफ यू लूकेद इन मय एयेस वुड यू सी
वहत'एस इनसाइड वुड यू एवें कारे?

ई जुस्त वान्ना होल्ड यू क्लोसे बुत सो फार अल ई हवे अरे
द्रेंस ऑफ़ यू। सो ई वेट फ़ॉर थे दय ( वेट फ़ॉर थे दय ) ऎंड थे
कोउरागे तो सय हाउ मुच ई लोवे यू येस ई दो!

चोरुस
ई'ल बे द्रेअमिंग ऑफ़ यू तोनिघ्त 'तिल टुमॉरो ई'ल बे होल्डिंग
यू तिघ्त ऎंड तेरे'एस नो वेयर इन थे वर्ल्ड ई'डी राठेर बे थेम हियर
इन मय रूम द्रेअमिंग अबाउट यू ऎंड मे।

Aaaaaah ( Corazón ) ई कैन'त स्टोप द्रेअमिंग ऑफ़ यू।
( No puedo dejar de pensar a ti ) ई कैन'त स्टोप द्रेअमिंग।
( Cómo necesito ) ई कैन'त स्टोप द्रेअमिंग ऑफ़ यू।
( Mi amor cómo te extraño )

लेट अत निघ्त व्हें अल थे वर्ल्ड इस स्लीपिंग ई
स्टे उप ऎंड थिंक ऑफ़ यू। ऎंड ई स्टील कैन'त बेलिएवे
ठाट यू काम उप तो मे ऎंड सैद "ई लोवे यू!" ई लोवे यू तू।

नोव ई'म द्रेअमिंग विथ यू तोनिघ्त 'तिल टुमॉरो ऎंड फ़ॉर
अल ऑफ़ मय लाइफ ऎंड तेरे'एस नो वेयर इन थे वर्ल्ड ई'डी
राठेर बे थें हियर इन मय रूम द्रेअमिंग ऑफ़ यू एन्द्लेस्स्ल्य....

चोरुस आउट...

Hooray? हूरय?

Well today was supposed to be bad weather wise but thank goodness nothing bad happened. It was just rain and nothing else. The only thing I'm worried about is what my night is going to be like. Other then that I'm okay.

Please let my night go well....

वेल्ल टुडे वास सुप्पोसेद तो बे रेअल्ल्य बद वेअठेर विस बुत थांक गूद्नेस्स नोथिंग बद हप्पेनेद। इत वास जुस्त रैन ऎंड नोथिंग एल्स। थे ओनली थिंग ई ऍम वोर्रिएद अबाउट इस वहत मय निघ्त इस गोइंग तो बे लिके। ओथेर थें ठाट ई ऍम ओक।

प्लेस लेट मय निघ्त गो वेल्ल.....

Why Do I Exist?

ई थिंक यू शौल्ड चेक आउट थे पोस्ट ओं मय ओथेर ब्लोग हियर। थांक यू!

ई लोवे टैपिंग इन हिंदी! इत इस सो मुच फुं! ऎंड इत इस नॉट लिके पीपुल रीड मय ब्लोग्स एनी वय बेकाउसे थेय'रे नॉट इन्तेरेस्तिंग अन्य्वाय सो ई कैन प्रेत्त्य मुच सय वहत एवर ई वांट ओं हियर ऎंड इन हिंदी! इसं'त ठाट ग्रेट?

Bye!

Bye! I'm leaving for camp tomorrow at 1:00pm and I'm looking forward to it. God please let everything go well tomorrow please.....Don't let any thing bad happen.

See here for what my morning was like.....

बाय! ई'म लीविंग फ़ॉर कैंप टुमॉरो अत 1:00pm ऎंड ई ऍम लूकिंग फोरवर्ड तो इत। गोद प्लेस लेट एवेर्य्थिंग गो वेल्ल टुमॉरो प्लेस.....डोंट लेट एनी थिंग बद हप्पें।

सी हियर फ़ॉर वहत मय मोर्निंग वास लिके....

The Count Down

Well I said when it reached 5 days until I go to camp I'll start a countdown and here it is:

07-14-07

07-15-07

07-16-07

07-17-07

07-18-07

*07-19-07*

07-14-07: Today was nice and peaceful. Tomorrow my mom is going to wash my hair for camp.

Shopping!

YAY! I went shopping for bras and I got some extra stuff too ( more pants that I love ). Yippee! Now say boingy k? n_n

ये ई वेंत शॉपिंग फ़ॉर बरस ऎंड ई गोट सोम एक्स्ट्रा स्तुफ्फ तू ( मोरे पंट्स ठाट ई लोवे )। यिप्पी! नोव सय बोंग्य ओकय? n_n

Hell

Gee isn't this nice? I woke up happy and then TS happens and ruins my day. Isn't my life great?

See LJ post here!

Surprises!

And here they are!

People That Get On My Nerves

See here for more info. I feel sick right now. 'cuse me I think I have to go puke.....
सी हियर फ़ॉर मोरे इन्फो ई फील सिक राईट नोव। एक्ष्कुसे मे ई थिंक ई हवे तो गो पुके.....

Pampered

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Guess what? I'm getting pampered tomorrow!

Hope?

Is there hope?

Happy 4th Of July!

Happy 4th of July! Hope every one has a good one! YAY for independence!

July 5th 10:02 Edit:

My night was hell pure hell and I can't stand the fact that God didn't do anything to stop it....I hope you're happy that you made miserable!

Suprises

Today my mom got me French fries and I didn't know that she was going too until I went into the kitchen after she woke me up and I saw them. And they were good. Also only 15 more days until camp! Yippee!

Oh I Can't Wait!

16 more days until camp! W00T! And my day went great!

W00T July Is Here!

And only 17 more days until I go to camp and I can't wait!

Hell Rises Again......

Hell rises again today. See here for more info and I'll post my additional thoughts sometime later.

Blessings

These are the blessings that happened today.

The Fight

Oh I think you should see The Fight Between God, Jesus, And Satan don't you? This is one of my favorite post. >:)

Ideas And Another Good Day

Conosonants Part 3:

ご°ご* ご'' ご:

And so on. My day went well and I'm thankful for that.

Ideas And A Day Of Good Things

Idea: Make a "language" using Japanese Hiragana and ones I made up.

Consonants Part 2:

か° か" か* か: か'

が° が* が: が' き°

き" き* き: き' ぎ°

ぎ" ぎ* ぎ: ぎ' く°

く" く* く: く' ぐ°

ぐ: け° け" け*

け: け' げ° げ"

げ* げ: げ' こ°

こ" こ* こ: こ'

Alright the last of the consonants will come tomorrow. All the of these are of my invention.

Ideas And A Day Of Good Things

Idea: Make a "language" using Japanese Hiragana and ones I made up.

Consonants Part 2:

か° か" か* か: か'

が° が* が: が き°

き" き* き: き' ぎ°

ぎ" ぎ* ぎ: ぎ' く°

く" く* く: く' ぐ°

ぐ: け° け" け*

け: け' げ° げ*

Ideas And A Day Of Hell

Idea: Make a "language" using Japanese Hiragana and ones that I made up:

Vowels:

あ い う え お あ' う' え' お'


あ° い° う° え° お° あ" う" え" お"


あ* い* う* え* お* あ: う: え: お:

Consonants:

か が き ぎ く ぐ け げ こ ご さ ざ

し じ す ず せ ぜ そ ぞ た だ ち ぢ

つ づ て で と ど な に ぬ ね の は

ば ぱ ひ び ぴ ふ ぶ ぷ へ べ ぺ

ほ ぼ ぽ ま み む め も や ゆ よ ら

り る れ ろ わ ゐ ゑ を ん

The other consonants that I made up will be added in tomorrow's post. The letters in red are of my invention. As for what my day was like:

It was hell because TS happened. And to make the whole thing worse my head phones to my walkmen broke so I had to go through hell while my mom was looking for my other pair of head phones but she couldn't find them so she had to go to my neighbour and borrow hers. I hate my self and I wish that I didn't have these problems.

Satan quit bothering me and go bother some one else who deserves it....like Sano.

God Bless Butterflies

Omg! This is what made my day after a day of hell at the clinic:

Butterflies! I saw so many of them and they made my day! They

really did! Thank you God for all the wonderful butterflies I ♥ them so

much! Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you!

Will Hell Break Loose?

Tomorrow I'm going to see my therapist and I'm not looking forward to it because it's at the clinic with the fucking babies. Even though I'm seeing her down stairs in another office where they're no babies or only one I still have bad feeling about going tomorrow.

And I get this feeling every time before I go there either to see my therapist or my 2 other doctors and 99% of the time I'm right. So I'm hoping against hope that hell doesn't break loose tomorrow. I want everything to go well. I'm waking up at 7:00am because I have a 10:00am appointment.

I hate waking up early. But I'm going to bed early so hopefully I won't feel tired in the morning. I love sleeping it's one of my hobbies! :O

Today Was Hell

LJ has all the answers of what my day
was like....So go and check it out and see
it for yourself you son of a bitch!

Today sucked like hell and it's all thanks
to that son of a bitch Satan. I asked God last night
not to let anything like this happen.....

......and apparently he didn't listen to that part
so fuck you too. Believe me I've really pissed with God on many
fucking occasions. This is one of them.

Good bye for now.....I must plan a killing spree... >:).......

YAY!

Go here to see what happened today! Both things were good things which I'm thankful for.

The Rath Of Satan

My day was going great until Satan killed it. So I have a little message for you:

I hope you burn in hell when you loose control of you "empire".
I hope after the fall of you empire you get to feel the pain that you
cause millions of people to feel. I hope you rot in your fallen powerless
empire and that your powers fall along with it.......

After all of that I hope that God comes down there with his sun and they both whoop your
sorry ass. I hope you feel the pain and scream in agony while I watch and laugh my fucking
ass off. After all a demond like you should suffer what he made people feel right? Of course that
sorry son of a bitch deserves it! LOOK AT WHAT HE'S DONE!

So Satan.....I hope u die a slow and very painful death while I sit and watch you in pain
while I laugh my fucking ass off.......

So what did you think of the second message/wish I wrote for Satan? Bet you loved it didn't you? And that's a good thing. You know why? Because you want the sorry ass to die too! Any way the rest of my day ( after Satan's rath ) went well and I'm calm and happy again. Good Night

P.S. I found some pretty cool scripts today on the web. See my LJ for more details. Thank you! *Bows* :þ

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Reserved for something interesting.