Friday, November 30, 2007

Today Was A God Send

And today was amazing! I went to the library and then to my local Rite Aid and I was shopping for pens when Selena's I Could Fall In Love came on the radio! OMG! That and the fact that I got an email from Sarah made my day! Thank you God! Oh and I got another boingy:

Isn't it adorable?!

>_>......I'm Freaking Weird

Ok something is definitely wrong with me....I died in my sleep and then I came back......and damn! It's affected my whole day. I told my mom and she told me that it was just a dream but I don't know because everything was black......

.......any way tomorrow I'm going to Library and hopefully I'll get some goodies because I've $13.00! W00T! Pray for me will you? I'm going to the clinic next week and I'm dying to tell my doctor what's been going on ( no not my therapist ).

Peace! I also need it.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Never Again.....

.....will I even talk to Evet. Trust me you do not want to know. All I'm going to say that she just proved my uneasy feelings around her to be right.......

If you're able to guess what I'm talking about, and if you're right then that means you're a complete psycho.


Saturday, November 24, 2007

X-mas Presents! ^_^

Today a HUGE box of X-mas presents from my brother and his wife for my mom and me came today. It's the biggest one that they've ever sent! Wheeeeee! XD

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Happy Thanksgiving


Although my day sucked ass. See what I'm talking about here. I hope that every one else had a good one. Bye!

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Bless My Mom

Well yesterday and today I stayed at my friends house while my mom was in the hospital and yesterday was absolute hell because I was worried sick about her and it was crazy. The whole thing didn't make sense it was like my brain was numb.

She called today and she'll be fine. :D That puts everything at ease. The only thing now is that I miss her! I'm at my place right now. I think sleeping in my own bed tonight will help alot. But it's weird being in the house and not having her here.

Bless her.....she means the world to me. ♥

Sunday, November 18, 2007

YAY! The Internet Is Back!

Ok so you've wondered what happened to me.....or not but I'm going to tell you any way because I have to......they told me to......

The internet has been down for 3/2 days and during that time I was absolutely bored out of my ass. I had nothing to do really. It's sad how the internet is the only thing "exciting" in my life atm and when ever it goes for some time I'm absolutely "lifeless".

It's sad. :( Any way 4 days ago I found more boingies including today! YAAAAAAY! And that's it.


Wednesday, November 14, 2007

I'm Happy!


Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Absolute Hell Gone Worse

How can hell get worse? Well this is how:

Today was absolute hell for me. I don't know wtf is wrong with me. I woke up this morning feeling really weird this morning and it just got worse through out the day. I know alot of it had to do with my OCD because I haven't had my meds in 3 days and it's just been getting worse every single day to today.

Lord kill me....

I think I'm going to loose it eventually.....Even now as I write this I feel weird and drained at the same time and I can't stand existing any more. So by for now.

If I don't post for 5 years it means I've killed myself.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Kerry Called!

Kerry called today and my mom and I must've talked with her for about 2 hours. Found out that she's staying in Germany for 2 more years but she'll visit. I don't think I could stand not having her here for 2 more years!

I'll be 17 then! O_O And that's scary for a whole lot of reasons that I'll tell you about some other time. In the mean time night!

Friday, November 09, 2007

Awesome Day

11-9-07: After I left my therapist ( who today truly showed that he's an a** ) I went to the library and returned one of the books I was finished with and renewed the one I wasn't done with and I got a nice big thick one with list of stuff in it for free! YAY! icon_mrgreen.gif I also went to the 99¢ store and I got more frogs and dice.

And the frogs squeek when you squeeze them! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! icon_mrgreen.gif I also went to Rite Aid and I got some really nice sparkly gell pens. And I'm going there again next time I go out with Ileen and Moet. icon_biggrin.gif

Wapo Gipo Mi Mi Mi Boingy! icon_mrgreen.gif

Thursday, November 08, 2007


Well today I finally got to go to the clinic and thanks to the happy pills my mommy gave me before we left I was "relaxed" and there wasn't many creatures from hell either. Evet came with us. I didn't want her too because I didn't want her to see my flipping out like that if any thing bad happened.

And nothing that bad happened any way so I thankful for that. I got mail from Kerry! YAY! She sent me stones! They're so pretty! ♥

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

I've Had Enough

You know I'm really pissed off about my OCD. Today I was supposed to go to the clinic but due to me having another breakdown I couldn't. And what made it even worse was the fact that Evet ( My health aid ) witnessed all of the yelling my mom and I did with each other.

And that's all because of me wanting to use a specific garlic powder container that I couldn't find. I can't stand being me any more and I really can't stand having OCD. I want it to end. Tomorrow I'm going to the clinic and I pray to God that there are no problems of any kind what so ever.

I need my happy pills.

Saturday, November 03, 2007

I Hate OCD!

My OCD is going to drive me insane I just know it. It's been bothering me for the past 3 days and right now and I don't know what to do. God help me please! I'm actually a little scared right now. I don't what to think anymore either. Am I doomed?

इ वांट तो दी अत थे मोमेंट। इ कांत स्टैंड एक्सिस्तिंग....

Friday, November 02, 2007

White Monarchs!

Yeah this is real. I found out about them today and I wrote about them on my insect blog along with one other picture of one. I ♥ them. They're going on my favorite butterfly list.

Thursday, November 01, 2007


I slept all day again......Don't ask me why because I have no idea why.

I didn't even do anything that would make me tired. I know I'm weird. -_-