Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Happy Halloween!

....but not for me. I slept all day practically.

What in the world is wrong with me? Some one tell me please!

Friday, October 26, 2007


The women that I told you about that's coming to take me places is coming on Monday Yippee!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007


My morning was absolute hell. Is it possible to want to kill yourself over OCD? I think so because it's making me go insane. And it's not only driving me crazy it's driving my mom crazy too. Another morning wasted to death over stupid OCD.

I'm telling you I really can't stand existing if I'm going to drive people crazy over my problems. And there's no one to help me because my mom doesn't know what to do and my therapist is a complete jackass! Lord could you do me a few favors?

1. Could you please kill my therapist because his existence isn't helping anybody. I mean he doesn't even think that I have OCD, because he thinks he knows more then all the doctors that got together to figure out what was wrong with me 10 years ago.

Because he thinks he knows everything when that worthless son of a bitch doesn't!

2. Either kill me or destroy the world so we all die.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

अवेसोमे न्यूज़!

वेल्ल फॉर अ गूढ़ व्हिले माय मोम हस बीन त्र्यिंग तो गेट सोम वन तो टेक मी आउट फॉर थे डे ऎंड टुडे अ मन काम ओवर तो एवालुँते मी तो हवे अ हैल्थ एड फ्रॉम उच्प तो टेक मी आउट फॉर अस मानी देस अस इ नीद। वहत'एस इन्तेरेस्तिंग इस थे फक्त ठाट माय मोम अस्केद मी इफ इ वांटेड तो तरी गोइंग आउट फॉर 5 देस अ वीक फ्रॉम 10:00AM - 3:00PM ऎंड इ सैद एस!

इ थिंक इ शौल्ड तरी थिस वन आउट तो सी हाउ आईटी विल वर्क आउट। ऎंड थे गूढ़ थिंग अबाउट आईटी इस ठाट वी कैन चंगे आईटी इफ आईटी दोएसं'टी वर्क आउट! =)

इ'म लूकिंग फोरवर्ड तो थिस!

Monday, October 22, 2007


YAY! I finally found out what kind of trees these come from. I have the trees outside my house. They come from the Japanese Pagoda Tree. While I was Googling them and other species I came across some pictures of beans of other species of trees in the same family! And now I'm going to look up these too!

I'm soooooo happy about these and finding out about them and finding out about different kinds. I ♥ them so much it's not even funny. I don't know why though. I've always been a nature person always.

Sunday, October 21, 2007


My mom is getting me more gell pens! YAY! And also my mom requested for some one to take me places and the women is coming sometime very soon and I'm looking forward to it immensely! So now I have time to spend with Moet and the woman taking me places!

YAY! This is going to be soooooo much fun! Please envy me! Mwahahaha! >:)

Saturday, October 20, 2007

You Wanna Know Don't You?.....

Well here is what's been going on lately. As for today I went to the library with Moet and I got to spend the day with her and that was nice. 2 days ago ( the 18th ) was absolute hell because I had yet another MAJOR OCD breakdown and it was hell as I said.

And as I told you my therapist is a jackass. I have a LJ entry about the 18 and a Gaia entry about the 18th as well both set to private FMEO for obvious reasons. And no I'm not going to re-post them here either.

All you need to know about that day was that it was absolute hell. And that's all you need to know. And as for yesterday it was hell too because TS was supposed to happen ( but thank God it didn't ) and I was a nervous wreck all day because I was so sure that it was going to happen.

But like I said it didn't and I'm greatful for that. :)

Monday, October 15, 2007

Absolute Hell

You know my therapist is such a jack ass? He thinks that I don't even have OCD and today my mom and I had to go to one of the clinics to take this stupid neurological test because he thinks ( my therapist ) that I have something else. He thinks that it's something to do with my brain. *Says this in her mock sarcasm pissed off voice *

And he practically unleashed all the problems that I had today with fucking ass babies on me. OOOOOOOOOOOH you just wait until I see him you just wait...

Thursday, October 11, 2007

I Hate Existing

What the title says. Today TS happened once but they didn't even say it was going to happen here! They just said heavy rain for NYC. *Screams* I can't take this any more. I don't wanna exist....

Wednesday, October 10, 2007


Yesterday was unbelievable both good and bad. Today my hermit crabs finally came and they're sooooooo cute! ♥ I got 4 of them and they all have the same shell but I'll some how figure out how to tell who's who once I've named them. Oh and this is the good and the bad stuff that happened yesterday.

I should warn you that this isn't some thing you want to go through at all....

The Good:

I went to the 99¢ store with Moet and I got a dangly thing with marbles in it. Hope they have more next time I go. It's really pretty! And you can take the marbles out and put different ones in and it's awesome!

I went to our local pet store and got a book on hermit crabs. I'm soooooo happy about that.

We went back to Moet's house to watch a concert and spend some time with her and her brother.

The Bad:

Few hours later while I was at her house I saw 2 blue flashes outside and I got panicky because it had been raining earlier that day and right away I told the everything and I was freaking nervous it wasn't even funny.

So we ran up the steps all the way to my apartment and said good bye and then a few minutes later......I was right and it was fucking hell. Not just becauuse of the TS but because I was practically screaming at my mom out of agony.

I hate it when a good day ends badly and why did it have to end like this?! FUCK YOU GOD!

Monday, October 08, 2007

Missed Me?

.......Didn't think so.

Any who I had a big controversy with the hermit crabs and it was insane ( full story here ). Also my therapist isn't what he seemed to be.....*sigh* another one gone bad? What's the story with these therapists? It seems like we run through them.

I must've had at least 5 over the last few years. When will we find one that we'll stick with for years to come? Tell me God. I don't know what we're going to do with this one or how long I'm going to see him. I'll keep you updated.

Also last night I finally got to see Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix! It was awesome! Can't wait to get it one DVD! When ever that is......=)

Monday, October 01, 2007


My mom told me that she ordered my new hermit crabs and they're comming on Thursday! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! BOINGY! My day was nice. I'm going to see my therapist tomorrow.